Okay so I know it's been a while since I've posted and I'm sorry for that, but as the title suggests, I am starting over. So my goal is to blog here a couple times a week as a personal online journal. Just to kind of recap the week. I'm also going to write everyday on a paper journal, but you guys won't get the deep personal crap.
So here's a little recap of what happened since my last post in April.
May-Missed Thailand drastically and went back to work
June-Stress level at an ultimate high. Started passing out in the middle of the month, went to doctor...no idea what is wrong
July-Went to more doctors, could have possible pinched nerve, please be careful
August-Went to neurologist, pinched nerve, need shot, no work for several months, school starts
September- miss work like crazy, spiral into depression, mopey
October-Great grandma isn't doing so good, Depression gets worse, still no work
November-back at work, love it, started asking for help
December-Got new position as paint associate, medicine is working, huge support group yay
January 1-8-Heart broken, alone but okay with that, realize it's time to take the pills and the happiness and start over
Today January 9th 2015
I went to work and spent most of my shift painting fence panels YAY...I've been doing it the past 2 days. Don't get me wrong I love painting but my coworkers were constantly telling me to use a paint sprayer in 4 degree weather...um I'm sorry but no. I would have been okay with a couple people telling me that but 90% of the coworkers who passed by said it. OKAY I GET IT I KNOW.
So what did I do?
I decided to go to Granite City and get a beer and a pretty expensive meal. Well it turns out it wasn't that expensive because I am part of the mug club. I got a 25oz beer, steak, asparagus, fries, and dessert for $29.00. I thought that was pretty good.
The steak was amazing and I told my waiter to pass my compliments along to the chef. I cannot express to you how much joy I had watching the chef's smile gleam from ear to ear. I was smiling my entire meal. And even though I was surrounded by families, groups of friends, and couples I didn't feel lonely or sad. I felt happy.
Now a little confession. I plan to enter a little confession to these just to keep you guys interested...
I wrote my number and a little message to my server. He was a nice guy who talked to me about school and his life and at the end of the meal he plopped himself in the chair next to me and said he was so exhausted. I felt really weird...I don't know how to flirt with him...especially when I've been mopey and trying to figure myself out. I quickly text my avengers and they all said to leave my number so I did.
I ran out like a cheetah but I was skipping on ice all the way to my car. If he doesn't text me or call me I think I will be okay. I've never done that or anything out of the box like that before. I never really took charge. It felt good to do something different. I felt like I was actually making progress in forging the new true me. So far this year, I like her and I hope she stays.
Minds Open, Bellies Full, Hearts Close
-The Foodie Side
